~intoxicated heart~

I’ve posted this entry few days ago even before the last one, but I took it out….but for sum reasons, I’m putting it back..

so here goes..

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hey you…yeah you…..

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it was a nice nice dinner…thx..the grapes were fantastic haha

I know now, you are reading this piece…but pls, im begging you, dont dig too much ya

sumtimes…ignorance is bliss

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I have come to learn about meddling…a great deal of lesson.

meddle sumtimes is good, but most of the time, it isnt…

but, for me, dgn poyonya aku nak kata, most of the thing that I choose to meddle, it’ll turn up ok…but most, I dont want to meddle, even if the parties related wants me to meddle…

coz, if aku tersgt la terrer, i wldnt be where i am right now, innit?

I learnt, that one meddler of mine, took matters to her hands…what she thought was best….maybe the action wasnt right, but it does to her at that point of time, i guess. but it did brought me to the situation that i am in right now.

When I myself was faced with this type of situation before, whereby aku lah org yg plg tahu the truth of what is happening to both my frens, I keep my mouth shut…bg aku, ada reason why my fren did that, n watever she does, aku stand by her, coz she’s my fren first. If had I meddled in that relationship n tell the other party abt the truth, they might even not be married n hv babies now..at that point of time, I care abt my (girl) fren’s hepiness more than the guy…and I strongly believed, it is not my story to tell…at all.

aku bukanla goody2-two-shoes ponn…but then again, tah laaa..

most of the time, kita akan terpikir balik, betul ke salah ke ape yg kite buat tu and we can all gv justifications to what we did before….utk tenangkan hati sendiri…utk menjaga air muka sendiri….

yeah, that person cld do otherwise, a better meddling actions….but, what is done is undone.

I’m not mad at the meddler….

coz, eventho sum wld say it is a  BIGGGG thing (messing with ppl’s life)..but for me, lagi byk kebaikan dia dah buat….ppl changed, and ppl realized their wrong doings…same like me…

I can choose to be upset, dissappointed and watever not, but I also can choose, to remember and menghargai all the other great things that the person has done to me..

I choose NOT to let it bug me. even if, I know that person outted me.

afterall, she is a friend..a very very good friend..

and sbg kawan yg baik, why do we need to think and focus our attention to all the bad things…we cld choose to be positive…buang rasa2 dengki tu, cemburu and all of the penyakit hati….sbb, sebagaimana kita sakit hati dgn perlakuan dia, jgn ingat dia takde rasa sakit hati atau keciwa dgn perlakuan kita…it goes both ways…cuma whether that person choose to say it out loud or just buat tatau jek..that’s another story.

It is a lesson……painful, yes…but it is a lesson nevertheless…I hope by that, I can become a better person and the bigger (wo)man..eceh!

~and, I hope you choose what I chose also….

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I’ve lost weight again…..mengarut tul haku nih…jap naik, jap turun

~sigh~~~~~

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