yew know, sumtimes, all ur big bosses & small bosses are not the office but sumhow they will find a way to give you hell and expect you to turn it into heaven for them..
Blardy bosses hahaha seb baik ko byr gaji aku
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I sooooo want to eat KFC occayy!! Like sgt2!!!
wearing braces is hellish tooo ~cry
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HE is Married, with a capital M.
He shdnt be contacting me anymore, but he did.
What does he expect from me now?
He is Married.
even after all those years, after all those tears, he cant changed what has happened.
to me & to him.
The history cant be undone.
but it is sad, nonetheless…
he said, He believe that he is still in my heart….as I’m still in his…
He said, it’s not easy to just dismiss 7+ years of memories…
but then again….after all said & done…he choses to be married, he had choosen to marry the girl.
When that is done, whatever unfinished business we might have is considered closed.
I cant be the "other one" in their marriage, nor to hurt another girl’s feeling..even if I was there first.in his heart.
No matter how I much his name accidentally comes out from my mouth.
He tried to get my number from a friend but to his misery, she didnt comply.
I was cleaning up my stuff yesterday….of this huge pile of rubbish that I kept in my store room…
I found the receipt yesterday….to the diamond ring he bought that was supposed to be on my finger, it hurts.
I found the cards, the pictures, the glasses……why now? why did he tried to be back in my life now?
He is Married..
It is sad…..no matter how much the memories came flooded in, he.is.Married.
I guess, he need the re-assurance of doing the right thing by marrying the girl…
but I cant give him the closure that he so wanted..
HE is selfish of pulling me back. when he had already "moved on".
I still have the dress for the Akad Nikah ceremony, I still have the bedsheet that was supposed to be for my bilik pengantin…
We fell out of love, yes. but I did commit to him…eventhough I met sumone else after.who became SOB, or so to say.
He, pulled the plug.
and everyone thought I did.
there’s no need to tell everyone the whole truth, because, this is between us..I held my ground eventhough there’s a lot of them who pointed fingers to me. They didnt know what had happened. The lies…he told.
If it really is my fault, tell me, why in the world wld he come back now? HE is unsettled, yes. but why?
This isnt the first time after the engagement was called off. One after he met the girl, one just before he got engaged, one after a month of being married and now, now….
There’s no point of him missing me, because he already has a wife beside him.who loves him. who might not know abt me. I reminded myself not to think of him…
It hurts but it’s over and I moved on.
I know he’s not a womanizer….he put up with my shit before..I love him, yes but I was no longer in love with him, at that time.
and now, whatever the "what ifs" & "could have beens" had to be deleted from my head and his, because,
He is Married.
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Oh oh…I havent start on my adveture thingy lagiiiiiiii
