Archive for October, 2007

31 Oct 2007 - letey neh

Wednesday, October 31st, 2007

I am done.

I am tired of hurting people, even if that is unintentional..

and I am tired of people hurting me too..

I cant take it emotionally and mentally…

All these while, it will be either way around…

Either you hurt people or people hurt you, emotionally…

So I am done.

I cried rivers, which is actually ocean when I think of it. Dulu2, they cried to me, I didnt do it intentionally tapi tah, then the cycle went down, and I was the one who cried pastu..n how had I cried…

I cant do it anymore of these cycles…it’s too tiring..and draining my energy..

I do not want to go through that again…

I.am.done.

and I am afraid….of retribution..

24 Oct 2007 - help!!

Tuesday, October 23rd, 2007

Eh how come I lost weight aa?? Before I went back for Raya I weighed myself oredi, at the hospital & was pwetty happee about it…yesterday aa I weighed myself again (using this very upscale, art of the century, fantastic weighing scale) & I lost 2 kg…TWO??? TWO????

(ok, TWO is a lot for me..whatsurnamemister!!)

Theories:

1. I lost weight while cooking & serving & smiling & looking pwetty & washing the dishes & cleaning the house on Hari Raya - 3 days (but but buttt I was eating all the time!)

2. I slept little sleep (my average is 8 hours a day…huahahahaha, call me baby!), which was only approx 3-4 hour a day during the holiday

3. My brain was actually tgh susah hati over the fact that I’m going into bankruptcy over hari raya damage in 2 day time, & channelled that worry to my body & sumhow it burns the fat (like, whoaaa)

4. My body was deprived over the fact that I have not taken a lot of self (poyomengada-sengetfromtepi) photos during Raya day itself (eh, and why sumhow my ex is much more self (poyomengada) photo taking than me, whereas when I 1st met him, he dunno how to take good shots?)

5. Stressing over work & bfa has led my body shrinking…

ok…aku dh makin mengarut dah nie…..I sooo need the TWO kgs, susah tau aku nak bela badan utk dptkan TWO kgs…ok, this is not poyomengada entry yg ditujukan kpd sesiapa, but really…I’m one of those people yg kene work hard utk naikkan berat badan, huhuuuu …so not funny.

But I think think aaa, the one I highlighted in blue is the main reason

hikhikhik (gelak poyomengadapasancomey)

I soooo need more flesh, otherwise mana ble pakai baju2 yg sedia ada niiiiiiii

22 Oct 2007 - PMS

Monday, October 22nd, 2007

guys are shallow.

girls are superficial.

in between je kut tak.

22 Oct 2007 - caffein resurected

Sunday, October 21st, 2007

It’s raining…It’s a rainy Monday

I used to love rain…but not today, coz it makes me so demm sleepy & lazy & sneezy..I had a dream last nite, a sad one….

Why is it a Monday today? Why is it not a Thursday today?

Must.keep.awake….MUST!!

oooohhhh…sweet nescafe…sweet sweet nescafe…thank goodness for Caffein..

I just realized that I dun have a lot of Raya Piccies!! GASP!!!! A narcissist like me forget to pose & take pictures?? huuuuuuuuuu

aku sebok memasak dan melayan org dan membuat air dan membasuh pinggan dan gelas and putting a smile on my face….(oh yeah…dis year I masak waaan ehehe)

how come lah i terforgot??

lupa la plak nak amek gamba nasyid like we promised to la babe…huhuuuu

by the way, Kemma gv birth yesterday to Mohamad Raiyan Iskandar (hah! gone lagi nama bakal anak aku yg masih tiada nie ahahahah)

since very-wise-babe is still not in, cant post pix…sbb takble transfer…see later later lah…

welcome back to the real world

huuuuuuuuuuuuuu

09 Oct 2007 - Rahsiaaaa

Monday, October 8th, 2007

I had a berbuka date last night at Rahsia …tempat tu sgt menarik and oh soo romantik! sgt seswai lah kalo nak gi memadu kasih ehehe…the food wasnt too bad, not a lot of variety but hey, what do you expect for just a RM38 nett buffet…tapi sedapla in my opinion…the ambience was oh so cool…the staff were oh so cute….the setting is oh so romantic…

Dsc02152 that is apple crumble…romantis kannn

and this is my date last nite ->Dsc02151  ehehehe lawa kan dia…

Minie, Jesse & meself went to the new mall in town last saturday…like oooohhh, sgt best ok!! Cant stop smiling cam org jakun saja huhuhuuu

Pavillion

Selamat Hari Raya semuaaaa…minal aidil walfaizin….

Halalkan makan minum pakai dan maafkan segala kesalahan yg terniat ataupun yg tidak…dari hujung rambut ke hujung kuku….

Doakan perjalanan yg selamat esok ye..

02 October 2007 - aku sakit hati

Monday, October 1st, 2007

halluuuuuu kabare semuaaa???

ishk..it has been one penat week for me..I was sick sick sick…haihhh

I was down with fever last Tuesday nite, while having berbuka puasa with 2 big bosses & 2 colleagues, menyebabkan aku tak dpt mkn segala buffetnyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

(if you have RM100 to spare for luxurious berbuka, I wld definitely recommend you to head down to Paya Serai, PJ Hilton. The buffet spread is mama-mia!!)

I had already tawaf the whole spread to see what’s there and be prepared to eat and eat(!) when suddenly during Iftar tu, my body was shivering and I hv this humungous headache accompanied..my vision was even blurred…What I didnt realized at that time is that my temperature was damn high. aku sempat amek kuih je utk berbuka tu…sedeynye..n the rest, I just sat there watching them eat..rounds after rounds…1 of the big bosses took pity on me and went out to buy paracetamol, yet i couldnt eat much anyways…I can barely drive myself home…sampai umah je, letak barang, bukak baju trus tido..everytime bgn, i wld telan another paracetamol, coz I was still shivering….by this time, dah sakit kat bwh rib area sblh kanan..huhuu

esok paginye, tak larat nak bgn terus g keje ok, I smsed my boss telling her i’m sick and wld come in later after I went to clinic…I still cldnt get up..I slept till noon. On 1 energy surge, I got up and salin baju, pastu baring balik, and on another, I put on my pants pulak…begitula sampai la aku larat masuk keta, and drive my Rory to the clinic…sampai kat klinik tu, ramai plaaak org sakit, lama gila ok sebelum nama aku kene pggl, so dah tak tahan dah lagi, i juz lie down je kat kusi tu, taking up 2 seats…lantak la org nak kata apa termasuk dua lelaki hemsem yg sakit pe tah tu (sempat lagi tuuu)…

so when it was my turn, the doc was quite surprise with my temperature, it was at 40..terus doc tu nak bg satu suntikan to bring down the temp, i was happy la kan, thinking it’ll be on the arm as usual…sekali doc kate kat bonts rupenye huhuuuu…kene bring down my jeans for her to stick that needle on my ass..aku pun dgn coolnye tanye la si doc tu, sakit tak..ingatkan kut la die nak ckp takdelaaa…sekali die jwb "ye, sakit." huhuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

Only then she examined my abdominal area that she told me my liver bengkak, n she took my blood for test to check if I hv dengue..Liver bengkak? huuu takuut ok.

sakit ape skang? aku dh pikior bukan2 dah…hepatitis la, ape la…tapi result cuma akan diketahui esok, coz ptg tu doc dh called n ckp, I dun hv dengue (Syukran)..

Doc tak kasi aku mkn paracetamol lagi coz takut keracunan paracetamol..and I was like, whaaaa? coz aku adalah org2 yg bila org suh mkn 2 bijik panadol, aku nnt mkn satu saja..huhuu how lah ble keracunan tu…

so balik umah, took the medication n i dozed off…I dunno how many missed calls and sms I’ve received…balik ptg Jesse buatkan moi sup…yeayyy..satu hari aku tak makan (ok aku taleh posa dhle sbb kene makan ubat dan segala2 apetah)

at this point I was so damn pissed off dgn org2 yg kejut aku sahur, bila aku takble nak bgn, kene kol lagi, kene suruh lagi…n aku kene soal plak pasal my puasa…which is good kalo aku sengaja tak berpuasa but I’m sick man!!! do you not care for my health???

anyways, I still come to office the next day, I told Salwa about the sickness and everything lah and I said to her,"Babe, aku sakit hati…literally" hahahhaha ok ok bad joke, but im the one who’s making it so its ok…that abdominal pain is still there, aku takble berdiri straight pun..kene senget sikit..

anyways, doc called me up and asked me to see her immediately, she’s reffering me to a hospital..it seems dia takut i hv abses (nanah) in my liver..my white blood count was at 27000 (normal range is 4000 - 11000) ..so you see how high it was. I packed up n drive balik umah…the doc was even surprised I came to work..

[btw, when i told my sis all abt it n said aku demam kuat, my sis ckp kalo reached 39 tu bole brain damaged or retarded, and i told her, "I was at 40 yesterday hhahah" huhuuu kalo aku ade ckp menda merapu2 pasni, korg kene maafkan aku, mane la tau, ter-short dah kat mane2...gud excuse eh?? hehe]

dh sampai klinik tu balik, doc pun check la lagi sekali..dia ckp selalunya org yg dpt liver abses nie org2 yg makan snails.WHAT???? I dun eat snails…like, ewwwww! escargot? oh tidak..doc tanya if aku ade mandi sungai ke, masuk utan ke n i said no…tu suma zaman2 aku lasak dahulu (walaupun aku menjerit2 pacat naik kat kaki aku hahahahah) oh, dulu aku adelah sgt tough ok..hehehe

doc pesan suh trus gi hospital pas jumpa dia, but aku balik umah n pack my things, in case aku kene admit, sent carpet to laundry first (might as well la kan)..then gi spital…sedeynye gi spital sorg diri…n this is the 2nd time lak tu….lame aku tggu kat situ sbb they were running test on me…despite ppl shd offer to come and temaning me, ade plak yg sebuk2 ajak aku buka…like, hello? cant you see im sick?

salwa offered to buy food for me tp takpe la…anyways to cut this longwinded entry short, I was ruled as UTI, but hv to come the next day for ultrasound to rule out abses..(Dr Ramesh made 27year-old-lady sounds soooo young!). by the time i drove myself back, aku dh cam nak mampus…anyways, UTI was bad tp luckily tak masuk into my kidney, otherwise it could hv been worse. Jesse nak jugak temankan aku gi spital even I said tak payah la…tp naseb baik la dia ada…who else can I turn too anyways….yg akan hold my hands….n understand my temper ehehe

So I was sick n still are…I still drove back to Penang last Friday after pegi spital n makan painkiller yg sgt hebat sampai aku tak rasa sakit lgsg, n came back only yesterday….

I had to fork out a lot of money for that private hospital fees…dah la nak raya…Jesse ckp "mahai jugak ur body ne" ahahahah

and, seb baik hati aku normal ok….even if I’m still on medication huhuuuu

and those time, while menahan sakit, nak kene plak jwb menjwab segala unnecessary things, personal & workwise…bole tak org nak expect aku care lebey2 pasal their nonsical things, whereas aku patut pedulik pasal aku aje…aku sakit ok (emo sikit)

stgh bulan ok nak kena ganti posa nie…*pengsan*