Whoopsie…I did say the "F" word indeed!
oh how I hate the world rite now!…
Letsee..hmm…First & foremost, our payroll in Manila has wrongly deducted my salary this month, they even wrongly printed out my payslip…all the numbers didnt tally at all…to make matter worst, they wrongly deducted my salary in put it in for Income Tax!!! Puk**ak depa lah!!!! Now they are saying that they cant retrieve the money back from LHDN, it’s not only a little sum, mind you.. It’s A LOT!!!!!!! Which can pay my whole year tax n got a bit of extra for next year!
Yeap. That is a huge amount.
Hence, making my bloody life so damned miserable. I was supposed to go for Hols in KK with a bunch of cool, awesome girls. (I did went anyways)
My beloved Lisa has been acting up lately…she’s having fever, the temperature keep going up like nobody’s business n she keeps on pouting by not wanting the start up when I start the ignition..I had to keep on putting water into the radiator, every (started off by) once a week, then once every 5 days, then every 3 days & almost everyday..of coz, with cars, u gotta tend to her rite away, otherwise it’ll become worse, juz like Lisa. juz because sumone had promised to take my Lisa to car Doctor & he didnt, juz because sumone promised not to forget all abt Lisa when he got a brand new Neo & he did! After consulting so many tortured soul ( yeah, I did tortured them), it was supposed to be approx. rm600 n the day that I found out that’s the cost was the day that HR told me I KENOT get my money back from LHDN n IT WAS THE DAY THAT I’M SUPPOSED TO FLY TO KK!!!!!
Bloody hell!!
And it was juz a day after I cried n cried n cried because my heart was being broken again n again n again! and I was crying for the whole damned months.
Agony is my middle name.
The previous day, when the guy who promised me the world (roll eyes, yeah go ahead) agreed to help me bring Lisa to her doctor, while dok pusing2 following his brand new Neo to find the bloody shop, guess what? I hit another car!
Yeap I did.
Cam c*b*i kan?kan??
That bloody girl who was so bloody dumb, adeke gi bawak keta lelaju n makan jln kat tempat workshop bebyk keta tu sume?? bodoh!!! Since aku yg nak kuar simpang, aku lak yg kena salah nye. Babs nyer pompuan! So not helping were the guys with us. I had to fork out 100 juz to keep her bloody mouth shut! Can u see wat’s wrong with her bloody car??
tak nmpk kan?kan?
Now see my car…sape yg kene byr lebih nieh??? 
Bloody hell!!!! Dah la dalaman Lisa aku sakit, now luaran juga sakit dan huduhs!
And I came to realized my summons (saman) tak byr lagi which I did planned to pay this month as I know it was due on the 9th, only to realized it was due on the day that I chose to look back at the ticket. Babiiiiiiii!!!!
With Salwa’s help at approx 4.30pm that day, we managed to call up a police officer in Traffic Bukit Aman to ask for help. n I had to blindly trust him with all that I got that he will pay ( n not sapu) the money that I banked in to his personal account so that I dont have to pay Compaun for about rm 300..
Blind Faith. GILA.
I have been giving my parents extra since I got to know they are in money trouble. And you can guess how I felt when my other siblings doesnt really care abt it when they actually know how hard my parents are trying to make ends meet. And how I felt when I know they are enjoying ( in the name of sanity?) while my mother is scrimping her lunch money so that her daughter n sons are well fed! So you know how bloody furious I was! I wasnt even doing anything for my OWN bloody sanity so help me God!
You think it is easy to put up a happy front?
Not to mention of my relationship issues…I can go on & on & on n make the rest of you to shame!
Yeap. I am such a drama queen!
You guys think I earn big bucks innit?? Wait till you are in my shoes.
I went to Per.odua with a fren to see wat’s wrong with my Lisa n after dah bukak2 suma, he quoted me rm2K++..Yezzzaa!! how bloody happy I was with that bloody owner.bloody hell. that fren is actually a fren’s fren…see, I’ve no shame anymore. He then called another fren who was my guy’s ex’s cousin who then helped me to go to another workshop since we had already know wat’s wrong with Lisa. My guy doesnt even care n knows abt this! this workshop quoted me RM1000+ which I dont have by the way.. I wish I can gadai all my bulu to pay for this but sadly the pawn shop doesnt want my bulu…I told you I had no shame anymore.
This was yesterday.
Now I had no car to go to work to. I dun have money to pay for my rent this months, let alone the bills n my bloody food. I dun even have money to even feed my Lisa, let alone myself. I even still owing those for my trip to KK (yeah, I know you wld say, why go anyway kan?) I dun hv money to even take my Lisa back which is supposed to be all right by this Thursday.
And my mother called me up yesterday to remind me of that stupid Laptop which her company was selling at mere rm500, which I said "yes" to much earlier this month as I was thinking to give it to a guy for his college use, meaning for a surprise, only to know that he doesnt even had a tiniest flick of interest in that laptop since it is a Pentium 3..And I had to transfer the money today to my mother since all was committed to her company.
Bloody wonderful innit??
He who says, he doesnt have money. He who spend, less than what they had single handedly spend, for the 2 most important persons in his life for their birthday, which I wish to scream on top of my lungs n tell them how the person that they love so much is actually in love with his own self n not willing to spend for them! I cant be telling them, can I? And he, went to Phuket shaking his ass without me,not wanting to bring me there too, bought an MP3 Player from MY fren, without me knowing until the thing arrived, yet he couldnt spend more for his family. I am not angry towards my fren but I cant help feeling betrayed & cheated.
Isnt my bloody life wonderfull??? All of these bloody exciting things happens on MY BLOODY BIRTHDAY MONTH!!!!!
YEap. that’s the best kicker of all!! Anybody can top me on that???? Pray tell, puhlease!
Now, I’m on this diet where I eat a piece of Choccie for energy in the morning. Eat rice for lunch, n another piece of Choccie for dinner. It works wonderfully for my body, I now even smaller then my smallest dress ( n I wear the smallest size that any shop sells). And if you happened to see a skeleton who looks like me, do come say Hi..It’s prolly me anyways.
Oh, you must be wondering how I came to work since Lisa is still at the clinic rite? I begged that fren’s fren to come fetch me today. So he came all the way from S.Alam to Kota Damansara juz to take me to work in Subang Jaya. I cant be taking advantage of that for too long, do I? Even though I’ve no shame, I do have a Conscience.
~sigh…Bloody Hell
I do not know how to go back home today, nor do I know how to go to work tomorrow..nor the next day.
I do not have such wealthy parents to back me up, nor older siblings, nor all those "bapak Gula", nor do I have that significant others to help me. I still dunno where to go korek duit to pay for my Lisa. Sumone suggested that I go tell tell & ask ask my parents for money, but tell me, how could I do that if I know they dun hv any? AND, my parents doesnt even know about all this, mind who you tell my little pathetic woes to okay?
So, if you wanna ask me out to movies, make sure the tickets pay for itself.
If you wanna ask me out to dinner, make sure the food pay for itself.
It’s gonna be the bloody Valentine tmrw, & I dun have anybody to spend it with.
It’s my bloody birthday month & all these fucked up things happened. & it is not PMS either, my period has long passed. I cant be celebrating with Jesse like we planned to…sorry babe.
SO, ISSIT REALLY A WONDER THAT I DID SAY FUCK?????
ps: Dont get me wrong, I did have a Splendid holiday in KK..might post the pix up when I’ve the mood for it.
