~intoxicated heart~

This morning, mama woke me up from deep slumber by poking my back and saying :

" When are you coming back to work in Penang?"

Oh! Time is reeaaaaaaaaaaaalllly running up…..huhu

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI

One happy family…

This pix was taken on the 1st Raya..

sgtla penat melayan tetamu yg dtg pada 2 hari beraya but it was great! Babah’s frenz, sis’ frenz, all the relatives….n today when hana came with remy, they asked why is my face looks sooo tired whereas I shd glow for I’m having my hols now..hahhahaha

the highlight on my 1st day raya was when babah’s customer who came, asked Babah whether I got a boyfie or not, n to that Mama replied " Why don’t you ask her herself instead?" n smiling…

Haiyo, Uncle! you got a son meh? Is that why ur wife looking at me too? Your son hemsem or not haa?Ask him to go sunat 1st then we talk la horr…Uncle, you like my shakira curls issit?Thanks for the hamper too, next year pls bring a bigger one hor…

This is the 1st time I’ve ever met this customer with his wife…and I think since I reached the age of 22 or so, org tua2, granma’s fren n my parents’ fren stop asking my parents whether I’ve a boyfriend or not..Masa tu rupa aku tak menarik dah la tu kut,  so depa tamo consider aku sesuai utk anak2 depa kut hahahahaha…so it’s quite flattering when someone asked my parents that n at this age summore…Ingatkan dah jadi old cow..undesirable anymore. N I didnt talk to them at all! I juz bring them the drinks n went back to the kitchen.Yes, aku adalah pemalu ok..

Well, I’m not to brag abt it pun, juz sumthing that crossed my mind. You know, I am the type of girl who wants my man to meet my parents and be a gentleman and ask their permission to date me. Eventho we might have been dating for a while, I would still want him to meet even if my parents stays at the end of the world. So what if I’m not staying with them but that shouldnt be an excuse not to come for the permission, if my man is serious enuff about me. I would want him to reassure my dad on the relationship n not juz taking me for a ride. To show my dad that he (my man) is his own man, capable n a gentleman who respects him enuff to come n meet him. Babah would like that very much, menunjukkan my man itu anak jantan (so called).

Babah might not talk a lot n ask too many Qs if he has not seen the blood & flesh. He usually thinks that until the man is brave enuff to see him, then it shows. Otherwise the man might juz be another guy…(since I’ve a lot of Bfs masa memuda dolu…) and I can tell you, only a few of them were anak jantan enuff.

Eventho I’m so-called indipendent, I would like my man to fetch me from from my home, take me out then send me back safely to my house NOT the other way around. NOT that I pick him up from his house, go out and send HIM back safely to HIS parents’ house safely instead n show to HIS parents that I’m such a responsible person that will not do any harm to their son.. n then ME on my way back to my house ALONE.

I AM THAT OLD-FASHIONED IN THIS AREA! aku la yg pompuan ok!!!

It shd be whoever is my man that shd do the reverse.

You know, people can give a lot of excuses, sumtimes sooo lame but they are all that. Juz excuses. Don’t think for a moment that I’m that stoopid. Dont kid yourselves either.

Maybe I’m bitter, maybe bcoz I’m gonna have my period soon

You wanna be my man? Show some balls n go meet my dad…

MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN.

So I’ve told Mama. I’ve told Mama about all of it..my fears, my plans, my secret wish, my failed relationship reviews….

I told Mama why I want to go to New Zealand, partly to study, partly to get life experience & definitely to run away (again!) and I’ve to do that before I reach my big 3 -Oh.

I had intially thot that life would be kind to me now, that I had this wonderful thing going on & there’s hope even!..but who am I kidding..

Yet, I dissapoint her again on not being able to have a stable relationship which would ensure my life later on…instead, I’m still like half girls my age nowadays….still flailing, still failing, still searching, still unsure…..nobody seems can give any reassurance to us, not about life ahead, not about anything..especially those you thot as special..girls my age might juz deny all this in fronting a macho image, a big girl image, the I-can-do-everything image. Deep down, how wld you know…you hv any siblings my age?? Hv you ever try asking her all this?

Mama seems to sleep on it last night & discuss abt it today in the car..

Mama says, if I go to NZ with him, Mama wants us to tie knot 1st

I told her, It’ll be me alone actually..(that’s y it’s running away, n I cant make him tie any stupid knots if he doesnt want it kan?)

Mama says, do I realize I’ll be doing labour job there, how can I say it’s work experience

I told her, it’s not work experience but life experience..I know how hard it wld be & it’s only for one year (but you know at least I can stop being sad of not getting what I want)

Then Mama was quiet (adik was supporting me thru & thru) …..

And at least I have the guts & balls to tell my mother what I want.

You know, opportunities doesnt come too often, that’s why it’s called opportunities…Once you let it pass, you might not get it back.

same goes with every type of opportunities,.. chance to study, chance to get that job, chance to get a car, chance to be married with the one you really, really love, chance to see the world.

When you said no or you push it away, you gotta realize you might not get a 2nd chance at all.

It’s either you grab that opportunities at that moment or you’ll never going to get it again.It might not be the correct moment that you want it to happen, but you juz might not get it anymore..Think about it before you start denying me ok frenz….

PEACE…..

another 10 mins to berbuka…I juz realize food is such a glorified thing in my house despite everyone in the family being thin! Not that I wanna brag, but you can see from my pix if you don’t believe me….my mom gave birth to 4 children, yet still maintaining her figure, my dad-a sportsman who dah stop sporting still slim with a bit of belly je, my bro, you cant say he’s a fatty2 pun, he’s juz big, my sis-needless to say, you can view her profile, my lil bro is such a cikeding eventho asyik memerap for food..

You know what I had for berbuka yesterday?

Nasik Tomato & Ayam Goreng Berempah

Kebab Daging

Bubur Lambuk

Karipap Daging

Pulut Udang/Panggang

Watermelon Juice …….drooollll

The day before that:

Tuk Abah’s Bihun Spore-A bit

Maktuk’s Mee Jawa-A bit

Bubur Lambuk

Cucur Udang

Roti Arab

Murtabak

n others that I weirdly cant recall…hmmmm…and oh! Nescafe Ais!!!

And that’s me alone…hahahahah tamak kan!! suketilaaaaaaaaaa!!

And you guys know what I berbuka while in Kota Damansara?

hmm…let’s juz say not as glorified as that, not even close!!

hahahah..partly because poketku kering & partly because takdek sape la pulak nak encourage my eating…no wonder I became smaller now despite me trying to get chubbier!

But I did get good food during Bulan Puasa, thx to Motmot..hehe..Just Thai & Secret Recipe…Nasik Ayam Pakcik Rahim, Tomyam & Ikan Kerapu Tiga Rasa..uiii settapp!!!!

Well…it’s nearing Iftar now…Happeee Berbuka Fellas & Happe Deepavali all!!

For Today:

Nasik Lemak

Pizza from Pizza Hut ( Which the one thing I really crave this Puasa, apart from Roti John)

Taufu Fah

Karipap Ayam

Popia Basah

Bubur Kacang Hitam

hmm…ahh…mama’s calling!! taaa

Really wish mama’s gene would be in my DNA..for the slim figure after beranak..heheheh

PAda hari rabu saya akan berambus balik ke Pulau Pinang…betapa gembiranya hati saya utk menyambut Hari Raya, walaupun saya akan disoal mengenai perkahwinan saya yang tak muncul2 tiba…saya sgt berharap tiada siapa akan bertanyakan perkara itu walaupun "dream on ryzza!" tetapi saya tetap berharap..

Kalo mereka bertanya juga saya akan menjawab saya nak kawen ngan Pak Lah, so selagi Pak Lah tak masuk mintak, mereka patut berenti bertanya..ataupun bertanya kepada org yg patut masuk meminang saya…bukan bertanya kepada saya instead..sbb kalo mereka bertanya, bila nak kawen, saya buleh ckp esok tetapi bagaimana dgn org yg patut saya kahwini itu….

ada juga yg berkata " K.ryzza tu sampai bila nak bercouple je? Die tanak kawen ke?"

maka jawapan saya terhadap org itu " Sekurang2nya I’ve real boyfie..how about you? sampai bila asik nak berskandel je??"

So think twice before u say anything to me….I might juz be mean and reply back sarcastically….and what i say is soo truee ok

huhu….memikirkan perkara itu, saya berasa macam tidak mau langsung menziarahi sedara mara mahupun kawan2 yg telah berlaki dan be-anak….kamu semua sungguh insensitive utk bertanyakan pada saya soalan keramat itu, kerana kamu telah melalauinya bukan??

Saya juga sedar penulisan saya pada hari ini agak bitter, so what????

I’m bored & tired,

My hope juz crushed,

this is my blog & I know I’m ugly,

and guess what? So are you!!

hahahah…bodoww!!! tak rhyme langsung poem tu kekekeke

yes aku sgt bitter today!!!!

errr… saya juga ingin mengambil kesempatan utk mengucapkan selamat hari raya dan maaf zahir & batin kepada semua yg telah membaca penulisan saya tadi…walaupun saya telah bekerja, saya tetap berharap utk mendapat duit raya drp anda semua kerana saya belum kawen, maka tiada laki utk membela saya…sila kasihani diri saya dan memberi duit raya sedikit sebanyak

dan jgnla lupa utk membayar zakat fitrah dan juga zakat pendapatan…kerana dlm setiap rezeki kita tersimpan rezeki org lain juga….

aku cinta padamu juaaaa!

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oh ya…saya terlupa, Kurt & Courtney telah mati bersama2..saya telah salah menamakan mereka..patutnya romeo & juliet…hmm..tetapi saya merasakan Riise yg telah meng assassinate mereka kerana biasanya dia sgt bersopan santun dan duduk di bwh akuarium sahaja..walaupun saya tgh menuangkan makana…selalunya pasangan itu akan tergedik2 naik keatas dan mkn n riise will sit quietly until they finished eating

but now since both are gone, dia pulak yg tergedik2 naik ke atas…

maka kesimpulan yg telah saya buat adalah benar…saiko gila ikan aku yg sekoq tu

~sigh~

it’s not good to start ur blog with sigh…but  ~sigh~

I’m damn bored. My life is non-existing. I wanna puke. I’m hungry.

The worst thing is you cant fast but you cant eat either.SHIT. Susah la nak mkn in this office! I’m dying of hunger..

I need entertainment. My usual perk-me-up chatter ->si saiko ngan cikadees is not online anymore.Probably she’s bz with her exam n tests n esemen ( how she spelled it)…tapi buleh plak pi tolong org meniaga…hoi!! selalu pagi2 dah menhYM diriku…kamu dah terlupa ke kami nie wujud haaa??????

Another one my long lost adik nun jauh kat South itu pon sama jugak…kenot chat with her oso..budak nie macam biskut…dia slalu online dulu tp bila kita buzz dia wat bodo saja. N now dia taleh berfrenster dah pulak..kena block. ~sigh~ YM pun takmo dah. Si Sombon!!

Boyfie as usual very busy with work and obssessing with Gym, which is good for him but bad for me…there’s no Me time no more bebeh… ~sigh~

Most of my frens are all either married, with & without kids, or they are working and staying elsewhere, KL, Bangi, Kajang, Penang, Perak, Pahang, Labuan, so cant have tete~a~tete with them..or they hv commitments on their own. too far la pulak for me to go & ask them out for a drink kan…

Wikens I got nothing to do…no one to cheer me up n no plans…nak pi berpoya2 got no money la plak….kena simpan nak Raya

Thinking to go bek the old way…but nnt boyfie marah la pulak…what old way u asked? ehehehe

thot of going to the movie alone…hmm Akma was telling me thru YM all abt her very interesting/fascinating life n asked abt mine..then I realized I got nothing to tell!!! GASP!!! What happened ah??

If I start doing all my things like before I’ll hv no time for boyfie either..but wld that make him miss me finally?

I’m Bored & Hungry & Skinny & in DIRE need of sum loving….anybody wanna be a pal & cheer me up??

There’s this guy in my office, he got a nice face, "skima" and all….quiet person, baik aje……but watch out!! he got this doll on his table….I thot the doll is so cute but some sort like a voodoo doll, n YES! it is indeed a voodoo doll!

Another lady in the office showed it to be (while the guy wasnt at his place la of coz)..It seems the wife made the doll for him

see his head? got pins/needles on top…with a little heart there..and if u see clearly, the needles are cute too

so, whenever he’s angry at sumone, he would jab jab jab at the doll with the needle..and he also got a tie utk hukum gantung the dool!!GASP!!

I dont know what’s the yellow string for at the hand there….pretty scary huh!!

the lady said, she went and ask the guy that 1 day she got a headache..so did the guy wish the doll is her and start stabbing at the head? the guy just laugh and said "no-lah…"

probably this is for fun but isnt it sick??

eh!! alamak!!

to the guy, if sumhow u r reading dis, kindly dont do anything to me..I’m merely sharing with my readers on how cute ur doll is..REALLY….

and to whomever in my office AND reading dis, DO NOT, i repeat DO NOT in any way tell the guy!!!!!!You hear me?? I might learn how to do the doll too…heheheh

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on separate note, saje nak letak pix buhsan ku ini….while doing nothing and tgh ber golekking on my bed after after playing with Courtney & Kurt & Riise ( foursome!!wow!!) oi!!! they are my fishes ok!

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You have the perfect blend of confidence and class. You’re proud of who you are - but you don’t broadcast it.

In relationships, you tend to be very romantic and demanding. You’ll treat your partner like gold, but you expect a lot in return.

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